Lord, I Lift My Brother to You

Are you there God? It’s me, Jessica. I have a formal request or should I say favor to ask. Please help my spiritual brother. I know he has been going through a lot of emotional turmoil lately. Please comfort him and help him discern Your will for him.

I feel like I can’t stop thinking about him. Please help me to focus on You. Please help him focus on You. Because if You are not the key player in our lives, life simply isn’t worth living. We both need to bring You back into a clear focus. If we don’t, we will be headed for destruction, which is exactly what the enemy wants. Help us to push Satin away.

I love you more than anything, God. I praise You and I know that everything happens for a reason. Looking back on my life, I have realized that everything You brought me through was for a purpose: to bring me closer to You.

I pray that my brother is drawn closer to You. I ask that I will not drive him away from You because that is not what I want at all. I just want him to be really happy. I want him to be fully satisfied spiritually. If it takes him being away from me to do so, then that’s what it takes.

If he can no longer communicate with me, I will be understanding. Even though it hurts, I want him cross the finish line with You by his side. I just want to thank You for the time you let me spend with him because he has helped me in so many ways. He has truly has been a blessing. He helped me battle my sorrows when I needed it most. If only I could return the favor.

Mary, please pray for me to keep in touch with God. I know that praying has sometimes felt like work to me, but now I so badly need to talk to Him. My soul is in desperate need of prayer right now.

Lord Jesus, I love You. I praise You. You are number one in my life. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Ready to Sprint

Get ready. Because I’m ready to change my life around. I’m ready to not only talk about God, I want to start ACTING like God. I want to be like Him so badly, even though I have screwed up things in my life. I am going to do everything possible in my spiritual muscle to gain back strength. I need God so much now it’s not even funny.

Thank God for my accountability partner, David. He couldn’t be more of a help to me this morning. While I didn’t feel like I could talk to him about my bad situation, he listened to me and reminded me that he would be praying for me. He told me to pull up my spiritual and Biblical muscle while I spend some serious alone time to think, meditate, and pray to God.

I’m not sure how I’m going to start this sprint with God, but I need to start now. I need to leap in and trust Him. I need to stop doubting God.

After all, He has created me. Doesn’t he deserve a little more than what I’m giving Him? He expects more from me. I expect more from me. Everyone should also expect more from me.

I’m ready.

Autumn Hiking

My friend and I decided to do some autumn hiking… before the snow returns! We walked by the Red River and took pictures along the way, hence this awesome slideshow. Enjoy.

 

5 Things I Want, 5 Things I Need

I Want:

1) To curl up on a couch and read a book with a boy (the right one )

2) To read/study more than I normally do

3) More acceptance from teachers, family, and friends

4) A better sleep schedule (now that I’m going to bed past midnight, sigh*)

5) To be more relaxed

I Need:

1) Time alone with God

2) To not put myself down about not reading/studying a lot and just do the best I can

3) Learn to accept myself, regardless of what others may think of me

4) To pray about my sleep

5) To realize that God will help me get through the grieving process of my broken relationship

Since I seem to be forgetting…

Here’s a list of things I am thankful for:

1. True friends – I don’t know what I would do without them
2. The ability to write
3. Being able to exercise each day
4. My pretty blue bike
5. A boy that is in my life – even though I am not sure it would work out between us, he is still with me
6. Having a big, supportive family
7. I have a fresh start at NDSU
8. I live in Dinan, which is closer to my classes and the library
9. My brothers – for being able to talk to them over the phone
10. God