Messy Relationships: Searching for Hope

I have been feeling very weak today about my forty-day fast. Sometimes I think, why am I not allowing myself to eat sweets or talk with a certain boy in my life?

I’ve been struggling over whether or not I should be with Jack. I decided I needed forty-days to clear my mind, and then, I could make a decision.

Only, I keep asking myself questions. What if I would be really happy with him someday? What if he changed? What if we could make it work? I know these questions seem illogical, but I still keep hoping.

But maybe I need to put my hopes to death. I can’t hope my way into a happy relationship; if he doesn’t try, then I get stuck in a mother-son relationship, rather then a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. I feel like I’m taken for granted. He does not respect my values, morals, faith, decisions, and thoughts. I don’t feel secure in his love for me.

But being the people-pleaser/caregiver I am, I let him take me for granted, and I compromised myself in the process-one thing I REFUSE to do anymore. So I’m clearing my confused mind to think about God’s plan for a change.

Third Day

I’m on day three. Yep, day three of not eating sweets and not being with a certain boy in my life. Only, I have thirty-seven days left.

I’m fasting for forty days because I need time to think. I am trying to tell myself that I can live without him. I was happy before I met him, so why can’t I move on and be happy now? I know it takes time, but I feel impatient. I’m afraid my love for him will never end.

  The only words I think

I’ve been trying to speak

Wondering how to live

I will forgive

The only words I can say

Will never stray away

 

‘Cause I wish you well…

I wish you well…

  

Easy Cinnamon Rolls

Here is an easy recipe for cinnamon rolls… yum. I recently made them for my Bible study group. It only has 6 ingredients and one of them is store-bought crescent rolls.

 

 

INGREDIENTS:
1 – 8 ounce tube crescent rolls
1/4 cup butter, melted, divided
1/4 cup brown sugar, packed
2 tablespoons ground cinnamon
1 cup powdered sugar
2 tablespoons milk

 
PREPARATION:
Preheat oven to 375 degrees F. Butter 8 or 9-inch round cake pan. Open crescent rolls can. Pinch seams together to make large rectangle. Brush 1/2 of melted butter over dough. Sprinkle with brown sugar and cinnamon. Roll tightly from long end of rectangle. With serrated knife, cut into 8 rolls. Place in prepared pan. Bake for 10-12 minutes or until tops are lightly browned. Stir together remaining butter, powdered sugar and 2 tablespoons milk to make icing. Spoon icing over rolls just out of oven. Serve cinnamon rolls warm.

I highly recommend these rolls if you are serving a large group. They’re easy to make and unbelievably yummy!