A Brick in the Road

My heart is deeply troubled. One of my guy friends that I message regularly on Facebook chat told me he was feeling horny and asked if I had a sex toy. I’m thinking I need to either de-friend him or avoid him. Luckily I told him not to violate Matthew 5:28, but I don’t think he understood that. He’s not exactly a church goer.

I’m sort of feeling like I need to hang around my gal friends from now on. I’m seriously tired of being around friends that really aren’t my friends. I’m tired of people trying to use me and treat me lower than a prostitute. At least prostitutes have some dignity. Men treat me like I have none.

I need to pray about this. I also need to discern God’s will for me. I know this is strange to say, but I have always wanted children. It’s a weird desire, I know. But at the same time, would an earthly marriage prevent me from having a closer relationship with God? Are all men like this? Sometimes I wonder.

Cruelty

I am writing this because I am struggling with a particular issue: men. I don’t understand them. Period. It’s almost like there are little signs on their heads negating their thoughts. Why are they so confusing? Why are they so shallow?

I HATE men. Hate is a strong word, but fitting. I don’t want anything to do with them. I can’t even stand being around them right now.

Why does God give me men that are so cruel? Does He think it’s funny? I just don’t get it.

I’m not laughing.